The end is the new beginning. Soon enough, I will be graduating from college. Looking for job now. That's when it get tougher.
Job is not as easy as I expected when I was in high school. In high school, your thinking would be, finish college, get a job, get married, happy ever after. Is always the full stop. Now that I'm finishing college, I don't think that way anymore. Now is always about the question mark. Where to get a job? When to get married? How to be happy ever after?
First question, where to get a job? I never thought getting a job is that hard when I was in high school. Maybe it was just me thinking it is this hard.
I started to think about future. Where I wanna be or what I wanna be. Unlike other, most of my friends, decide how rich they wanna be in few years time. Me? I'm thinking, who I wanna be. Is that makes me harder in my career?
Then I came to, where should I get a job? KL, would be the best for career opportunity, for now. The only problem is, I see future, the future which is not stable. I see Penang would be a great one. Penang will have more opportunity in few years time, why? Because of 2008 political tsunami. Changes of government giving Penang a very good opportunity, as I can see, just my humble opinion. Most of my friends don't think about this issue either. They don't want to work in KL because they hate KL so much, they just wanna be near to their family. Or they just wanna get away from where they were born. Am I too concern about external factor?
Not just that, there are lots more.
Dilemma, as usual.
Chee Hsien.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Sometimes something should be left untold
A mistake that I learned today. Not everyone can accept the fact that they are wrong. Not everyone can accept your opinion. Not everyone can accept the fact that they have to change their lifestyle.
Let me ask you a question. How many of your friends who clean the dirt on your face? I know you have a lot of friends, you don't need me to tell you there is a dirt on your face because your friends can live with you with the dirt on your face. For me, I can't stand the dirt and I told you about the dirt so that you can clean it up and wont get laughed by other people. Is that wrong for telling you about it?
Maybe you love living with the dirt, but girl, this is just a small little dirt that I'm telling you. If you left it unclean, you will be having more and more dirt on you face, sooner or later, all your friends will be leaving you. I thought I was such a nice friend who tried to wipe away the dirt for you but it just turn out so wrong.
I tried all the best I can do to accept who you are but I came to realize that a friend should accept you as who you are yet helps you to be what you should. What I get in return? You said that I was a friend who is fake to treat you nicely. A fake friend you described. The word "fake", you don't know how hurt was it. Of all the stuff I did as a friend and you calling me a fake friend. Is that what I deserved? I have nothing to say if you think I'm fake.
I hate your eyes, it doesn't mean I do not love your ears. There are always something of you which keep the hate away. I was trying to love your ears more than judging your eyes. I know if I keep judging your eyes, I have no time to love your ears. I was trying to love everything about you and you just crushed it. Crushed just by one word you said to me. Fake, plastic, whatever you wanna call it. I already took the first step to step back for you and you don't seems to care about it. So what's the point I keep stepping backwards? I'm not gonna step back anymore.
I'm sad for what I did was not appreciated. It makes me looks like I'm a fool. If you can't accept what I said, I'm sorry then, I did what I did as a friend, if you don't want to talk to me anymore, I'm okey with it. Thanks for the memories you gave to me. It such a pity to say goodbye to you.
Chee Hsien
Let me ask you a question. How many of your friends who clean the dirt on your face? I know you have a lot of friends, you don't need me to tell you there is a dirt on your face because your friends can live with you with the dirt on your face. For me, I can't stand the dirt and I told you about the dirt so that you can clean it up and wont get laughed by other people. Is that wrong for telling you about it?
Maybe you love living with the dirt, but girl, this is just a small little dirt that I'm telling you. If you left it unclean, you will be having more and more dirt on you face, sooner or later, all your friends will be leaving you. I thought I was such a nice friend who tried to wipe away the dirt for you but it just turn out so wrong.
I tried all the best I can do to accept who you are but I came to realize that a friend should accept you as who you are yet helps you to be what you should. What I get in return? You said that I was a friend who is fake to treat you nicely. A fake friend you described. The word "fake", you don't know how hurt was it. Of all the stuff I did as a friend and you calling me a fake friend. Is that what I deserved? I have nothing to say if you think I'm fake.
I hate your eyes, it doesn't mean I do not love your ears. There are always something of you which keep the hate away. I was trying to love your ears more than judging your eyes. I know if I keep judging your eyes, I have no time to love your ears. I was trying to love everything about you and you just crushed it. Crushed just by one word you said to me. Fake, plastic, whatever you wanna call it. I already took the first step to step back for you and you don't seems to care about it. So what's the point I keep stepping backwards? I'm not gonna step back anymore.
I'm sad for what I did was not appreciated. It makes me looks like I'm a fool. If you can't accept what I said, I'm sorry then, I did what I did as a friend, if you don't want to talk to me anymore, I'm okey with it. Thanks for the memories you gave to me. It such a pity to say goodbye to you.
Chee Hsien
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Friends are important, don't you think?
Bright, cold silver moon, tonight I'm alone in my room. At first I really thought I was going to be alone all night long, thanks to a few friends of mine, so nice, walk all the way from their hostel which located few blocks away and brought me dinner. I love you people. You just made my day!
Came to think about it, not to say I'm showing off or what. I actually got many friends around. Most of them are good enough to be my brothers and sisters. But some are just selfish bitches. Who cares about those bitches? All I care is those who bring out the best in me. I'm glad that God gave me such nice friends around.
Somehow, I make all my friends disappointed. I want to hang out with everyone of you. I want to see what you see, think what you think, joke what you joking about. I can't do it. I can't merge all my friends into one group. I tried to spend my time equally, but I failed. I will neglected others. I don't know why. Is not that I'm leaving this bunch of friends, I just can't manage the time I spend with friends. I'm sorry buddies. Will catch up with you all soon :)
Chee Hsien
Came to think about it, not to say I'm showing off or what. I actually got many friends around. Most of them are good enough to be my brothers and sisters. But some are just selfish bitches. Who cares about those bitches? All I care is those who bring out the best in me. I'm glad that God gave me such nice friends around.
Somehow, I make all my friends disappointed. I want to hang out with everyone of you. I want to see what you see, think what you think, joke what you joking about. I can't do it. I can't merge all my friends into one group. I tried to spend my time equally, but I failed. I will neglected others. I don't know why. Is not that I'm leaving this bunch of friends, I just can't manage the time I spend with friends. I'm sorry buddies. Will catch up with you all soon :)
Chee Hsien
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