Sometimes something should be left untold

A mistake that I learned today. Not everyone can accept the fact that they are wrong. Not everyone can accept your opinion. Not everyone can accept the fact that they have to change their lifestyle.

Let me ask you a question. How many of your friends who clean the dirt on your face? I know you have a lot of friends, you don't need me to tell you there is a dirt on your face because your friends can live with you with the dirt on your face. For me, I can't stand the dirt and I told you about the dirt so that you can clean it up and wont get laughed by other people. Is that wrong for telling you about it?

Maybe you love living with the dirt, but girl, this is just a small little dirt that I'm telling you. If you left it unclean, you will be having more and more dirt on you face, sooner or later, all your friends will be leaving you. I thought I was such a nice friend who tried to wipe away the dirt for you but it just turn out so wrong.

I tried all the best I can do to accept who you are but I came to realize that a friend should accept you as who you are yet helps you to be what you should. What I get in return? You said that I was a friend who is fake to treat you nicely. A fake friend you described. The word "fake", you don't know how hurt was it. Of all the stuff I did as a friend and you calling me a fake friend. Is that what I deserved? I have nothing to say if you think I'm fake.

I hate your eyes, it doesn't mean I do not love your ears. There are always something of you which keep the hate away. I was trying to love your ears more than judging your eyes. I know if I keep judging your eyes, I have no time to love your ears. I was trying to love everything about you and you just crushed it. Crushed just by one word you said to me. Fake, plastic, whatever you wanna call it. I already took the first step to step back for you and you don't seems to care about it. So what's the point I keep stepping backwards? I'm not gonna step back anymore.

I'm sad for what I did was not appreciated. It makes me looks like I'm a fool. If you can't accept what I said, I'm sorry then, I did what I did as a friend, if you don't want to talk to me anymore, I'm okey with it. Thanks for the memories you gave to me. It such a pity to say goodbye to you.

Chee Hsien

Friends are important, don't you think?

Bright, cold silver moon, tonight I'm alone in my room. At first I really thought I was going to be alone all night long, thanks to a few friends of mine, so nice, walk all the way from their hostel which located few blocks away and brought me dinner. I love you people. You just made my day!

Came to think about it, not to say I'm showing off or what. I actually got many friends around. Most of them are good enough to be my brothers and sisters. But some are just selfish bitches. Who cares about those bitches? All I care is those who bring out the best in me. I'm glad that God gave me such nice friends around.

Somehow, I make all my friends disappointed. I want to hang out with everyone of you. I want to see what you see, think what you think, joke what you joking about. I can't do it. I can't merge all my friends into one group. I tried to spend my time equally, but I failed. I will neglected others. I don't know why. Is not that I'm leaving this bunch of friends, I just can't manage the time I spend with friends. I'm sorry buddies. Will catch up with you all soon :)

Chee Hsien

Life in KL

Hey guys! I'm sorry for not updating my blog. I got no Internet access for the pass one month until last week.

I'm now settled down in KL to persuade my Advanced Diploma. Is a whole new challenge for me. The college is way much much bigger than the one I went in Penang. Penang campus was just less than a quarter compared to KL's. One thing I don't understand is why my college go so many staircase? Is like hiking for me everyday when I going for class. That's another thing. The food in canteens is suck to the max! They got 2 canteens, 1 cafeteria and one "restaurant". 2 canteens sucks, cafeteria is ok ok. I haven't try the other one.

Out of college, I usually stay at home unless dinner. That's all. Most of the time will be at home studying. LOL! Out to play one every weekend. That's my life in KL.

I just came back from Look Out Point. The above picture was taken there. Thanks to a photographer I met there who willing to borrow me his tripod. Can you spot the dead pixel in the photo? How to repair? :(

Anyway, those in KL please bring me out!

See you guys then :)

Once and Forever

3 years ago, I stepped into TAR College with a few high school friends. I remember how was I welcomed when I reach there on the first day of orientation. I was welcomed by the security who asked me whether I want to park my car inside the campus. I remember who he is and he is still there working as a security. Then me and my friends got separated into different groups of team. That's the moment I'm all alone with myself in a place where nobody knows me.

I braved myself to sit with a guy, which I don't even know where he is now and I don't even remember his name. The orientation was kinda bored to me but I'm glad that I get to know a few new friends which I think they don't even remember me now. One week of orientation is fun actually, in fact, it was the only time I can run around college, playing around, spraying water, mess with the water colour in the campus. Well, we can't repeat it because all the time we spend in college would be studying.

The first day of class that I'm assigned to, I still remember how I felt about it. I was wondering how and who would my classmate be. The moment I open the door of the room, I met this guy who I previously met during the orientation from other group. We sat together and after than he became my first best friend I know in TARC. However, he didn't make it to diploma and he is now working as a photographer somewhere in KL.

The first year of my college life was incredible. I made new friends all around, I joined Chinese Language Society which we had a blast celebration dinner together, I joined Volleyball which I learn to play volleyball with new friends and we actually won 2 rounds for a newbie like us. LOL! The first presentation in class, I remember that my classmate was laughing at me which I don't know why. The first choral speaking that we were forced to participant by our English tutor and we won 1st runner up UNEXPECTED! xD The first outing we had was at RedBox Gurney which ended up 7 people squeezed into a Proton Savvy. It was fun actually. My first birthday I had with you all, check it out here. And the first year is quite happy because I got high CGPA but the real challenge start when I was promoted to diploma. I failed my first paper.

During the diploma first year, we the promoted students always went out together, left out the new students behind. I don't know how, I don't know why, we will come to this close together. A semester pass a semester, diploma year pass very fast. First time went vacation with you all in Langkawi. Think back to the times, it was hell lots of fun. Can we do it one more time?

I remember the first time we all get drunk together;
I remember the first time we sang by the beach with a blanket of stars;
I remember the times we went lunch or breakfast together;
I remember the bus stop we use to hang out and gossip together;
I remember the McD that we used to study together;
I remember the beach that we always hang out and make mermaid;
I remember the exam hall that we pass the answer around;
I remember the coffee shops that we always go for foods;
I remember the Sunset Bistro that we love to go to enjoy the sunset;
I remember the G56 which I think is a tuition center to us;
I remember the cinema that we always go for movie;
I remember the New World Park......

There are so much to write, so much happiness to share. I don't think I'm gonna finish listing it.

With the support and love you all gave to me, I'm proudly graduated. I have no idea what I will be without you guys. You bring more laughter into my life. Thinking back, I was wondering what have I contributed into your life? You gave me so much and I don't know what have I done with you all. Hereby, I apologies for what I had done, please forgive me.

There are so many classes in TARC, but why M10 I'm in? I asked myself. Seeing other classes got collusion but M10 don't have. This is a very proud thing in TARC.

Good luck to all of you, may you have a bright future =) I will definitely miss each and every single of you.

Till we meet again.
With love,
Chee Hsien

My First Touch!

Last week, I went all the way up to Alor Star to meet up with friends. I went to a friend house once I reach there because his house is the only place I know in Alor Star. Finally met his brother that just bought at Canon 40D few weeks ago. I recommended his bro to buy a 50D but he bought 40D. It doesn't matter, he buy, I try :D Woot!



That's me figuring how to conquer 40D! I even read the manual book! LOL!

After I tried out a few shots, they took me somewhere for lunch. I forgot to take photo of the shop. This shop is well known for this style of fish, silly me, forgot the name :D See picture!




The fish was nice! The vegetables wasn't that good. :D It is worth a try for the fish.

Coming up next, outdoor portrait, stay tuned!

Chee Hsien

Shorty got low low low low~~

I don't have to say anything! Let the video below do the talking!



If you can't view please click here.

Thanks everyone that came to my birthday party and got me so wet. The party was a blast and everyone had fun I hope. Is not fun for me, if you wanna know why, come I throw you into the pool and see you like it or not :D

Will blog about it with photo soon. Love each and everyone of you.

Chee Hsien

Stepping Into A Whole New World

Today is 1st of May, which is a Labour Day! Is my birthday! OMG, I'm 21! The time keep on moving.

Everyone keep asking how I feel when I'm 21. Well, I can say it taste like normal. It just another ordinary day for me. I just wish to spend the day with my love ones. That's all.

Thanks for all the wishes that everyone of you sent via SMS, MSN, Facebook, Email and etc. Thanks very much. Some messages are touched. I don't know what to say other than Thank You.

Happy Birthday to me!

Chee Hsien